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February 24, 2005
and though you're still with me i've been alone all along
in·sub·or·di·nate
adj.
Not submissive to authority
Yeah, that makes sense. I no longer work at Target. Even before I was officialy fired, people already knew. People I have never even talked to asked me about it. I've been told I'm ballsy though. I guess that's good. Nobody else will stand up to the store lead.
Monica even said she's impressed. I'm even somewhat surprised myself. They were all looking at me, and I still stood my ground. Yeah, I refuse to work. Ass.
So the job hunt begins again. Whatever. My vacation/sick time from target should give me a few weeks before I really need a job. Shit, it was more than double my average paycheck. I don't know if that's good, or my average paycheck is that bad. Eh.
So i've been playing some of the songs for the band, and I have them down when i'm here alone. But put me in front of chris and I just get all fucked up. I want so badly for him to be able to rely on me. He's so into this and he needs someone right there with him. And my damn E string is rattling all the time. Probably because I don't know how to play bass. But I'm working on it.
Posted by Cameron at 11:52 PM | Comments (0)
February 16, 2005
drowing in my sleep
i can't sleep. people keep yelling stupidity at each other. i tried going out to my car, but fuck. it's cold. i just want to get some sleep.
From Norco to San Francisco Est. Time: 6 hours, 31 minutes
that's better than 20. or was it 40?
i've seen a ton of these. this one stands out to me though. i'd say who did it, but i can't find it again. it's someone on deviantart, i'm pretty sure.
Posted by Cameron at 12:07 AM | Comments (1)
February 15, 2005
sleeping with ghosts
so i'm going to take a chance
and it's a pretty big one
it's all on a whim
and lately, a whim leads to goodness
i just purchased an E C F'n W shirt on ebay for way too much. But i never see them anywhere, and it's been like 2 years since i've seen one on ebay. hopefully it fits well.
Posted by Cameron at 08:25 PM | Comments (1)
February 11, 2005
there's a little nothing to everything
so she called me over, and i went. i stood there and talked while she did her thing. and it was good.
but why?
Posted by Cameron at 02:13 PM | Comments (0)
February 09, 2005
Y
Posted by Cameron at 07:51 PM | Comments (1)
February 06, 2005
a boy brushed red | living in black and white
"Based upon your responses of your written test, you appear to be suffering from moderate to severe depression. People who have answered similarly to you typically qualify for a diagnosis of major depression and have sought professional treatment for this disorder."
that's just what i needed.
I hate people that have to get the last word when they argue. it's always something stupid, like "fuck you" or "i hate you." Words that are just generic angry words. So i guess my sister is gone for good (again). This is like the 20th time or whatever. I'm done buying games, and eating fast food all the time. And no more starbucks. My two monthly free rentals from hollwood video will have to keep me entertained for now. I need to get out of here. I'm going to see if anyone I know would be interested in getting a place. I think i'm going to go insane if i stay here.
Posted by Cameron at 02:00 PM | Comments (1)